Accidental with Purpose
A Guest Story by Cassandra Speer
My Mother was 15 years old and living in a foster care group home when she found out she was pregnant. She did not plan for parenthood and fully intended to abort me until she arrived at the clinic. She changed her mind when a woman protesting outside of the building scared the hell out of her ‚ literally.
She chose life that day.
I wasn’t raised a believer. My childhood was turbulent, to say the least. I grew up never knowing who my biological father was, and my homelife involved addiction, abuse, and alcoholism, but I am thankful I was granted the right to live — regardless of the circumstances.
Most of my life I suspected there was a God, but it wasn’t until I was a young adult that I came to know Him intimately. From a young age I’d whisper to him, never really knowing who it was I was even speaking to but He knew me. He chose me. He had a plan for my life, even though my life wasn’t planned.
Psalm 139:13-16 says, For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother’s womb. I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well. My frame was not hidden from you when I was made in the secret place, when I was woven together in the depths of the earth. Your eyes saw my unformed body; all the days ordained for me were written in your book before one of them came to be.
From the moment I was conceived, there was a threat against my life but there was also a purpose. God has a plan for your life, but we also have an enemy who does not want to see that plan succeed.
Here’s the thing. Apart from Jesus I would have become just another statistic. It wasn’t my willpower or determination to rise that broke the generational curses that plagued my family. It was Jesus. He freed me from the destructive cycle and emotional baggage.
The moment I chose him, I chose life.
My life was spared with a lie. The woman outside of the clinic shouted “God will never forgive a murderer, and if you kill your baby you’re automatically going to hell.” This is false! There is nothing that can keep you from God’s love. No darkness that his light can’t drown out. No pit so deep his mercy can’t reach down. God’s love can cover a multitude of sin if you truly repent and allow Jesus into your life.
There is no sin that can keep us from God.
If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just and will forgive us our sins and purify us from all unrighteousness. 1 John 1:9
Your past does not disqualify you from your purpose. God created you, knowing you’d make mistakes. He chose you, knowing you might walk away. He has a plan for your life, even if you’re not living the life you originally planned.
You’re not here on accident; choose to live out your God given purpose.